Publication date: May 31st 2013
Genre: YA Contemporary
“I’m looking out from inside the chaos. It must be a one-way mirror because no one seems to be able to see back inside to where I am. The looks on their faces, the judgment in their eyes, tells me everything I need to know. The most frustrating part about the whole messed up situation is that even though I’m the one that they stare at in shock, I am just as shocked as they are. I know no more than they do of why I lose control. What they don’t know is that I am more scared of myself than they could ever be.” ~ Tally Baker
After a devastating turn of events, seventeen year old Tally Baker is admitted to Mercy Psychiatric Facility where she is diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. She has come to a place where she honestly believes that her life is over. Her mind tells her that she will never smile or laugh again, that she will never be normal again. It is in this unlikely place that she meets two people, different in every way, yet both critical to helping her realize that she has so much more living to do.
Candy, a cantankerous sixty year old Mercy Psychiatric patient, is hell bent on driving everyone as crazy as she is. Candy shows Tally that, regardless of her diagnosis, the ability to push on and live her life to the fullest is her choice and hers alone. In the midst of Tally’s oftentimes humorous, sometimes heart-wrenching, escapades with Candy, a new patient is admitted to Mercy—a native American woman named Lolotea. Along with this new patient comes a daily visitor, her son, Trey Swift. At first glance, it is obvious to Tally that he is incredibly handsome and unbelievably caring. But what she learns through her second glance, and many thereafter, is that there is much more to Trey than he ever lets on. It is during these daily visits that Trey and Tally build a friendship far deeper than either of them truly realize. With Trey, Tally feels for the first time since being admitted that someone is looking at her as a person and not as a disease. Trey begins to make it clear that he wants more than friendship, but she knows that she can never give him more. How can she, when she won’t even give him the truth? Tally doesn’t tell Trey that she is a patient at Mercy, and she doesn’t ever plan to. Her plans go up in flames when she finds out that Trey is a new student at her school, the school where her brokenness was found out in the floor of the girl’s bathroom in a pool of her own blood.
Tally Baker is a 17-year-old girl who is diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and is admitted into Mercy Psychiatry Facility. There she makes friends with an inconvinient and mischievous old lady named Candy and she meets Trey Swift while he is visiting his mother.
This book was such an emotional rollercoster...I laughed, I cried, I swooned and I felt like punching a wall! It has everything!
I found the interactions between Tally and Candy to be hilarious and helped to soften the story a little bit sometimes. I also liked that by the end we can see Tally's parents trying to understand her more and trying to be more present and become a part of the support group she needs.
Natalie also seemed to be a great friend and never gave up on Tally so it was nice that she also had a little love story going on which helped her become more 3-dimensional.
Then there's Trey...tall, dark, handsome, caring and protective Trey...do you see where I am going with this? I loved how gentle he was both with his mother and withTally. How he took care of her and gave all of his love to her. I found myself stopping just to sigh and swoon at how sweet that 6'3 guy was. Now, with that being said, one of the things that confused me a little bit was how quickly everything went. I do understand that at a young age (look at me talking as if I hadn't just turned 19 last month) things always happen really fast but here they happened a bit too fast.
Still, if you can look past how fast their relationship got serious, this is an amazing and really enjoyable book.
Guest Post: "What does my office look like" - Quinn Loftis
Hmm, short answer- it looks like a teenager vomited in it. (I mean that in the best possible way)
I wanted an office that would inspire me to want to write, something bright and inviting and invigorating. The other colors in my house are very cozy colors which I love but aren’t conducive to being alert to write. I also wanted to have things around me that inspired me so I have fan art hanging all around, and I have my books displayed- this helps me remember, when I’m in the middle of a book and don’t think I can do it, that I’ve actually written books before and had people like them. Below are some pics of it.
Quinn is a 32 year old wife, mother, nurse, and writer, not necessarily in that order. She lives in beautiful West Arkansas with her husband, son, Nora their Doberman pinscher and Phoebe their cat (who thinks she is a ninja in disguise). She loves writing, reading, and crocheting. Her favourite holiday is Christmas, favourite book(s) is Pride and Prejudice, The Alpha and Omega Series by Patricia Briggs, and the Harry Potter Series by J.K. Rowling. She loves to be silly and have fun, loves music and thinks there is no greater sound in the world than that of her little boy's laughter.
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